adhd . anger issues . jealousy issues . hypersensitivity . abandonment issues . anxious attachment . age regression

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about my adhd :1 - I tend to get distracted easily from tasks, even important tasks.2 - and I also tend to do things by impulse so bear with me!!3 - I also sometimes really like to yap a lot so please tell me if I interrupted you by accident :3 very hyperactive basically, and sometimes I'm not!!4 - adhd + my anger issues just makes it a lot worse for me, so expect me to lash out on someone someday unintentionally

about my anger issues :1 - I believe by the name that it's obvious that IT CANNOT BE CONTROLLED, and I have tried to manage it.2 - my anger issues have been developed through depression + grief so please, do not push my buttons as I get agitated very easily3 - I have passive anger, I used to have SEVERE outward anger issues, but now I managed to at least control it a bit by being passive (will seem rude so expect the worse from me 😕)4 - and yes, I do get pissed at the smallest of things, expect that someday to happen!!

about my jealousy issues :1 - developed from ny abandonment issues + anxious attachment.2 - I don't express my jealousy, but I will ghost you if I do get jealous (I need time to calm it down, and being near you won't help AT ALL.)3 - this goes out to my friends + my significant other, I get jealous easily no matter who it is. (severely if s/o)4 - severe trust issues, I don't trust strangers or people I don't know that are close to my friends or significant other, I tend to get jealous and really bitter (may come off as rude + will ghost)5 - I cannot be confronted easily about my jealousy issues, I will make up any excuse to avoid serious talks about it. (unless you're my significant other)

about my hypersensitivity :1 - surprise surprise, I'm an age regressor!2 - I get hurt/upset at the smallest of things, sometimes I end up crying3 - I usually isolate myself whenever I do get sad or upset, whether it's a big problem, or something minor.4 - I don't speak up about my emotions as much, I usually look for vent channels where my close friends aren't in and rant/vent there (eg: old shu server)5 - yes, I do severely need comfort, and sometimes I wish to just be alone, but of course, this is makoto! I will not tell you! (will ghost you if I need time alone.)6 - yup! I also cry when I'm jealous! when I miss someone! basically in every negative situation I tend to cry and I really cannot help it!

about my abandonment issues :1 - I cling to my loved ones like a toddler clinging to it's mother.2 - I tend to get really anxious when I see that someone close to me is becoming distant, and it makes me overthink, which leads to me crying uncontrollably because I genuinely do not know how to cope with this!3 - and yes, of course, I will not speak up about this directly to my friends and my significant other because I fear they will leave me because of how complex of a person I am, so I will just put it here and hope they see this and be able to understand me more.4 - I get really clingy when I see signs of distance between me and the person that I love, I sometimes end up blaming myself5 - yes, I do get jealous easily because of my abandonment issues, why? because I'm scared you're gonna replace me like the others!6 - I have trouble trusting people's intentions, or even my loved ones, I'm really sorry I turned out to be like this, please bear with me.

about my anxious attachment :1 - this is targetted towards my significant other only and mostly my close friends.2 - I fear losing you, or even worse, being abandoned
so I often try to keep in contact with you despite how introverted I am (can't hold convos)3 - I need reassurance most of the time, so please throw some here and there if you have the time or if you can/nf4 - I overthink A LOT, which causes me to cry since I usually think of the possibilities of a relationship someday ending abruptly.5 - I'm dependent on my significant other, I find discomfort in independence (though I sometimes joke about it but I really am not independent)6 - I have low self-esteem, and I'm severely emotional + impulsive in relationships due to my anxious attachment, my low self-esteem often makes me think lowly of myself, and I can't accept compliments no matter what or who.7 - I'm as clingy as a flytrap, and I also have difficulties trusting the friends of my significant other

about my age regression :1 - my regression often gets triggered due to stress or ptsd.2 - I tend to act younger than my age around people I'm comfortable with3 - I don't like it, never assume I never cringe at myself! I sometimes try to force myself to act mature but it just happens randomly, unconsciously almost4 - my regression usually goes back to when I was 6-14 then back to 175 - I always try to seek comfort, but I don't know where6 - I revert to an age where I felt safer and less stressed (6-14) whenever I feel unsettled or stressed, sometimes I do it on command, sometimes it happens and I can't control it.7 - don't force me to be more mature, it only makes it worse
just please, try your best to be there for me when I'm like this, if you can/nf

about my love languages :1 - MUSIC: I usually make playlists for the people I love most, I often send just links to songs that i think remind me of them. (It makes me sad when they don't acknowledge it or react negatively because this is my most used love language. 😕)2 - ART: if i draw for you even if I have severe artblock, then I love you, especially on birthdays and special requests, more than glad to draw for you <33 - TALKING A LOT: it means I'm comfortable talking with you, and I love sharing silly stories with you (wish you'd notice how much I actually love you to the point where I become a whole extrovert in your presence.)4 - COOKING: if I learn how to cook a certain thing that you like, then I love you5 - SINGING: this rarely happens because I'm genuinely too shy and self-conscious about my voice (I'm insecure about my voice if you can't tell)6 - SMALL UNNOTICABLE THINGS: i tend to do small things for a certain person that I love, even though they don't notice that, it still makes me happy everytime because it reminds me of them7 - WRITING: if I switch up shakespeare mode on my notes then I love you more than you love me